Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Failure... when your best just isn't good enough








































So things didn't work out this week.


Last week I was reading a book, and it was talking about how "success in God's eyes is defined by faithfulness".


I shared this with my wife, and half-jokingly said, only 'losers' say this.


The truth is, I do take some solace in this. God looks to the heart and knows our best of intentions. He doesn't expect us to be able to be able to control every outcome.


Still. I can't help but feel like this is the motto of those who give up before the battle's really started.


I've got to work on somethings in terms of clarity and execution. And one thing I've learned from following Jesus, is that even the things that aren't your fault, you take ownership of. That's what He did. That's what I plan on doing as I continue to stumble forward.


I'm too young right now, to not be failing like crazy.


Grace & Peace to all my fellow leaders who live in the fringes of failure.



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Saturday, October 14, 2006

First week of seminary...

After four years of taking part-time classes, I've finally taken a much anticipated step of entering full-time studies. It was difficult integrating with the community as strictly a night student because those classes by nature were always over-sized with predominantly other students who worked full-time like I did and were in and out with our other obligations.


I'm just starting to scratch the surface of the community here. I know I'm forgetting people, but shout outs to Sharon, Grace, Troy, Adam, Carolyn, Bernard, Amy, Yuling, Morgan, Peter, Jake, Jeremy, Joel, Brian, Natalie, James, Ivan, Anita, Leo, Selwyn, and Jason. I'm glad we were able to connect, if even for a moment.


On a more disappointing note. My first attempt at starting a church planting and kingdom advancing student network completely flopped.


I'm going to need to process this some more, learn from it, and try again.


On the brighter side, my classes have been phenomenal so far. I'm taking five this term (some thing that's ridiculous, but with the baby on the way, I'd like to get as much as I can done to lighten the load later). My classes are:


Practice & Theology of Ministry

Youth at Risk

Old Testament Theology & History

Preaching

Leadership Development


I've been hammering away at the more academic core and language classes all these years so I can finally take some of these more practical sessions that I've been waiting for. Content for all of them look fantastic and the profs are excellent as well.


Leaving my job this summer I have to admit I teared up a bit. It was a life I loved, that I know I will never be returning to. At the same time, I felt that God had poured something new, something extra, into my spirit as I made the transition. Walking through the halls of school now, I still shudder at the tremendous blessing and privilege of having the hand of God guiding my life.


Who is this King of Glory, that pursues me with His love...



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Thursday, September 21, 2006

An excellent question...

A while back, I was corresponding with Jack Popjes (With Wycliffe Canada, who spent a bulk of his life as a missionary in Brazil), and discussing my future. He asked me a fantastic question that I ask myself every year.


Where would you honestly put yourself right now on a scale from 1 to 10. With one being the lowest risk and the most comfort, and ten being maximum risk, pain and possible reward. And why?

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Saturday, September 16, 2006

For the geeks...

If you've been using skype for free long distance this year, check out Hullo. It's much like the Avaya, which I use to use at work. You type the number via the client, it calls you locally, then calls your other party locally, and the conferences you together, phone to phone, for free!


For those of you who followed me into the land of zooomr, a bulk uploading tool just got released for it. Check out juploadr here.


Calgoo lets you take your google calendar offline.


For those of you who are wondering how to keep site stats on voxtropolis. You can paste html code from different stat providers into the 'text' sidebar widget when you hit 'look and feel'. I just started using statcounter.


And to top it all of, it looks like Jesus is back and living in Miami.


*Update. I just made my first 'portal' on Zooomr. It's a neat little new feature that allows you in a sense to place a picture within a picture. Click below to see one of me getting slapped and a portal into the split second reaction afterwards.


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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Rampant reading...

With the time off and in an attempt to get ahead of school before the baby comes, i've devoured several books the past few weeks.


Working the Angles - Eugene Peterson

Confessions of a Reformission Rev. - Mark Driscoll

Getting to Yes - Roger Fisher

The Story we find ourselves in - Brian McLaren

From Paradise to the Promised Land - T. Desmond Alexander

Being Leaders - Aubrey Malphurs

Biblical Preaching
by Haddon Robinson

Preaching to a postmodern world by Graham Macpherson Johnston


Anyone else read these before? I often feel quite affirmed in my own thoughts after reading books, but wrapping up this latest set, I feel like I know less than when I started and more challenged than ever.

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Saturday, September 09, 2006

More videos of me...

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Here's two more short lightsaber videos.


One is a practice duel, which is pretty funny right at the end if you know chinese.


The second is another lame one of Yvz defending herself against my saber as she lays on the couch.


Finally here's a large video you can download if you wish that I just stumbled on. Some university kids ambushed and nerfed me at our church's Summer Sojourn gathering. (My portion's around the middle of the clip).


Update: two of the videos that include Yvz have been made private (she's a bit embarassed... yet i'm so proud of her!). I can add you to my youtube friends list if you want to check'em out!

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My lightsaber...

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I just got back today from visiting Ottawa for the past week. I was beginning to develop migraines from having zero internet access. Anyhow, it was a fabulous time of family and friends.


One of the highlights was fiddling around with my brother in-law's lightsabers. They are so very cool. Here's my first ever youtube video. A short video of me rescuing my pregnant wife, it's so very very lame.


I can't figure out how to embed it, but check it out here.

Friday, September 01, 2006

We're back...

We're back. Refreshed, and ready to take on the world.


Lots to catch up on, and more updates to come.


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Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Leaving work...

After giving my six-weeks notice, I finally packed my stuff and left the office today. I was flooded with words of appreciation and encouragement as I leave behind this fantastic place I've worked the past four years. It's easy to leave something behind when you hate it anyways, but to pick up and leave something really good in hopes of something even more extraordinary is no easy task.


I'm going to miss the friendships and the actual work itself. It's still a bit of a surreal that I won't be seeing many of these faces again. I'm even missing the tedious parts of my job already. I'm very happy with the work that I've accomplished and the people I've connected with along the way. I've taken just about every chance to grow professionally and to point people towards a life beyond the visible. It's one of the few things that I've felt good about from start to finish.


I hope to finish this next leg of the race strong as well as I head back to school.


More immediately, I'm about to fly out to Vancouver, celebrate our anniversary in Whistler, explore Seattle, and really just get some time to rest and reflect. Life's been incredible, but I have no doubt the best is yet to come.

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Thursday, August 10, 2006

Confessions...

I'm adding a new category to my vox called 'confessions'.


I think there's something liberating about confessing. Just as the scriptures call for us to confess our sins, and as Peter confessed that Christ was the Son of the living God, I believe that confession is something that is raw and profound.


I love writing and teaching and discussing, but there's something to be said about simple confessions. Maybe in doing so, we come one step closer to who we really are. Maybe in the midst of it, we discover the person God's always seen and still continues to embrace.


Here's one.


"If people knew how hard I worked to get my mastery, it wouldn't seem so wonderful at all." ~ Michelangelo.


I'm not sure what context Michelangelo said this, but it resonates with me deeply. I tend to make things look easy. I wish raw talent just naturally flowed from me, but anything worthwhile I've ever done, has usually been a result of a painstaking amount of work.


I often sleep less than most people, just to get done what regular people do in a normal day. My superman complex brushes off any effort as if it were nothing. Though seemingly humble, I've found what it really does, is set unrealistic standards for others, and devalues and belittles any effort they make.


and yet the Creator of the universe still embraces me.


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Monday, July 31, 2006

Free Zooomr pro account...

VOXers - I posted a while back about Zooomr, a photos hosting site like flickr but considerably slickr... v2 of it just relaunched and right now bloggers can get a free pro account offering 2.5 GB of uploads per month!


Instructions are here. It just involves posting a single picture on your site like I just did below. See my zooomr site here. I'll be flooding it with many more pictures as they release their bulk uploading tool soon.


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This is me in San Diego during one of many business trips. I'm going to miss all expenses paid business trips!

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Saturday, July 22, 2006

What have we done...?

If you have ten minutes today, watch/listen to this photo essay on Chernobyl.


Feel free to share what it made you think or feel.


Friday, July 14, 2006

And so I handed in my resignation letter...


It's been four years since I graduated and began working at IBM and it's been 4 years since I've known that this is the summer I'll be leaving it all behind. Much praying and planning has went into this journey. I recently extended my thirty year plan into a sixty year plan… just in case I live that long.


I've never had a doubt that this is what God wanted me to do, though I've got to say, that a twinge of nervousness has crept up on my recently. With this next step I'll be leaving the common and familiar for the seldom and unfamiliar. I'll be trading a steady and solid income for unknown periods of debt. Most of all, I'll be giving up a job I love and daring to live a life of love.


One of my managers was relieved it wasn't due to any type of job dissatisfaction. "Well, I can't compete with God", he exclaimed. It turned out my other manager was on staff with Willow Creek earlier in his career. We ended up talking for a couple hours about life, discipline, and vision. It's interesting how as I've talked to others about this, what I'm hearing is that I'm "one of those people" who actually try to do something different; something they love in this life.


I've got a lot that I want to do in my life, but the truth is, after looking at my life from a sixty year perspective, I was starting to draw blanks on what else I might want to do. Most of us over estimate what we can do in a year, and drastically underestimate what we can do in ten or twenty years. The way I see it, with the pace of life as it is these days, we have the opportunity to live multiple life times, having different and worthwhile careers and passions during our time on earth. I know plenty of people who have things they want to do in life, but the reality is, they're just wish lists. Real dreams must be attempted.


I'm leaving this career, and taking the next step towards my dream of unleashing hope in others because I must. My heart demands it. And anything less would be a violation of who I'm called to be.


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Friday, July 07, 2006

Links of the week...

- One voxer ponders the increasing evil in the world...

- If you haven't heard already Buffet's giving away his billions

- Guy Kawasaki's keynote speech on the Art of the the Start

- Download google and youtube videos with this

- inbreaking - Social bookmarking for the emerging church... do we really need a seperate service for this?


- PastorHacks - Productivity tips particularly for those in ministry

- 20 reasons why you should plant a church

- Clips of Mark Driscoll and Tim Keller on the coming DesiringGod conference

- ELI - Emerging Leadership Initiative for church planters. I'm usually assessed as a prime candidate for church planting but didn't fair as great on ELI's. Supposedly I don't have enough experience doing actual church planting. odd.

- The Evolution of Dance - both brilliant and hilarious

- Google Picasa Web Albums. I've mentioned this one before, but I hope enough people get on this that they really invest in creating more features. Here's my current album.

- And finally. Tabblo. I thought this was kind of neat, as it gives you slick templates for storytelling through pictures. Below's an example of one of mine



Will took the plunged and joined me in the monk look for the summer. ... See my Tabblo


Friday, June 23, 2006

Being Superman...

Superman Returns Quotes from the upcoming Superman Returns movie.


Jor-El to Kal-El (Superman's father to his son):


"Even though you've been raised as a human being you're not one of them. They can be a great people, Kal-El. They wish to be. They only lack the light to show the way. For this reason above all - their capacity for good - I have sent them you… my only son."


Superman to Lois Lane:


"You wrote that the world doesn't need a savior… but every day I hear people crying for one"


Many articles and articles have already been written about the comparisons of Christ with Superman, but what about the followers of Christ and Superman?


In the Scriptures they mistook John the Baptist for Christ, anyone ever mistaken you for Superman?

What would it look like if followers of Christ, though different from those around them, were the leading examples of what it meant to be fully human? to be the very best of humanity?


How might we impact and influence others if we saw the greatness, and the beauty, the hope, and the good within them?


Where would you be today if you were living as a person sent to bring light into the darkest crevices of humanity?


What would happen if you heard the inaudible cries for a savior from the people around you?

When people saw the extraordinary life John the baptist was living and calling others to, he was able to point them to One even greater than himself.


What would happen if we became heroes in our towns and cities, and before people began calling us super men and women, we could point them towards the greatest Hero to ever walk the earth?



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Friday, June 16, 2006

Church planting and kingdom advancing network...

Gathering


I plan on launching a Church Planting and Kingdom Advancing network (I need a shorter cooler name) on campus at Tyndale this Fall term. See the post that brought this about here.


Knowing next to no one, as I begin my first year full-time there as a student, I'm trying to make things 'legit' with student council, and hope to find a way to draw out those that might be interested in something like this.


i'm currently imagining the gatherings to be provide and be driven by...


Networking - Awakening and connecting with like-minded and like-hearted people.


Equipping - through Students, practitioners, professors? Material from Acts29, IMN, or others?

Resourcing - Tools, books, sites, experiences, networks


Visional Environment - A place to pray, dream, innovate, create, cultivate, and inspire one another.


One of the first experiences I hope to connect this group with is via a road trip to the IMN (International Mentoring Network) Regional conference in Montreal in september.


International Mentoring Network

Here's what's happening for it:


- Strengths assessment and training


- Steps for guiding people through life transformation


- Voxtropolis–new paradigms for mission and ministry in our cyber-electronic world


- guidance for leaders of the church in a 21st century post Christian west


- access to new networks and relationships


- multi-sensory experience


What do you all think? I'm going to need lots of help with this and hope many can get involved. Anyone interested?

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Monday, June 12, 2006

Toastmasters...

Is anyone else part of this cult?


I just joined recently. I've been wanting to go for years, but the constant clapping and procedures always scared me off. I finally mustered the courage to become a part of this odd little community that we have on site at work, and delivered my first speech there yesterday.


I actually wish now I had joined this years ago. People tell me i'm a natural (i think raw and unrefined is more like it), but the practice really does help.


Here's the toastmaster's interational link - it's a fairly huge global organzation.


While i'm at it, here's a few other hot links.


Audio's from the consumption of faith and faith in consumption conference


Google Video of a crazy face plant


Audio's from the latest Acts29 church planting regional sessions


Dynamic Church planting international


Allelon - Center for missional leadership


givemeaning.com dedicated to fundraising and philanthropy


Article comparing Rob Bell as the next Billy Graham


Article on how 'God' is the new drug of choice for rebellious youth


yelō awakening the human spirit


lulu.com enabling you to self-publish


From the reform and resurge conference - audio message on how jacked up punks will change the world.

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Thursday, June 08, 2006

Baby names...

We still don't know if it's a boy or girl yet, but here are few preliminary names. And yes, i'm serious about them, but I can't say Yvonne's approved of all of them... yet.


For a boy...


Optimus Prime. Hear me out on this one. Leader of the Autobots. Brought hope to humanity, even though he was not like them. Defender of good. Always at the frontline of battles. Empowered others. Rallied the troops.Experienced pain, death, and resurrection.

Maximus - from Gladiator

Freeman - I love Morgan, and it's a great word combo

Luther - for both Lex, and the Martin's out there.

Crash - Great film, forward moving, and unafraid.


For a girl...


Hunter - Imagine guys saying, dude, stay away from her, her names hunter!

Stellar - as in stars and spectacular

Sashimi - I was thinking of some type of sushi theme because it's both raw and refined.

Liv(e) - short, sweet, and a constant reminder of what to do when she wakes up.

Ashling/Asher - I was thinking of something that starts with A, since she'll likely be a december baby, and might be at the end of the line for a lot of things, this might even things out. I like something starting with Ash, but Yvonne thinks it sounds too much like 'ass'.


For middle names, I'm really leaning towards these two...


Ruach - Hebrew meaning spirit, breath, wind, courage... for a boy.

Ecclesia - Greek for sent out, or called out, as in called out from darkness to light... for a girl.


What do you think?

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Saturday, June 03, 2006

I didn't know we could do that...

"I didn't know we could do that..." That's what I'm hearing as I bring up church planting to people.


When I've asked fellow students in my seminary what they plan on doing with their lives and dreams, there seems to be this linear answer of 'well, i'm going to be a youth pastor, then an associate pastor, and then if things work out, i'd like to be a senior pastor one day'. It sounds like a great plan, and nothing wrong with that, but could there be more?


I went to Canada's National Church planting congress last year and was the only person from my seminary there (the largest in Canada). I attended a breakout session and what I heard from leaders at all levels repeated asking was - where are all the young, catalytic, entrepreneurial, leaders of the next generation?


I'm convinced that the structures and processes that have been built for raising leaders by previous generations are only producing people who think within those systems (And I'm sure this applies to more than just the realm of 'spiritual' leadership). Many of these frameworks are shrinking our hearts, leaving little room for the extraordinary possibilities that we are all capable of and must bring about.


I've decided that as I make my transition from work back to full-time school this september, I'll be launching a new Church Planting & Kingdom Advancing Network on campus. More on this soon. Thoughts?


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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

I'm pregnant...

Well, i'm not, but my wife sure is pregnant. At first we were hesitant on telling anyone, since all the books and friends seemed to advise to wait at least three months. But we thought about it some more, and felt that keeping it to ourselves would have been more motivated by fear, and all the "what if's", rather than faith, hope, and love.


If anything did happen we'd want our community's prayers and support throughout the process. I can not explain how excited I am!


Here's our little one at 5cm's (The black is liquid, the round circle on the right is his/her big head, and the body's laying across to left). The process of life is so freaking phenomenal.


our baby


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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

God is not impressed...

humming birdI was running outside the other day and just soaking up the beauty and creation around me (See my recent post on our 'God soaked world' on the bookclub vox). I came across this incredibly stunning bird and quickly took this picture! Actually, not really, but I sure wish I did. This one was grabbed off of flickr at this dude's site.


My bird was just perched by the side of the road doing a whole lot of nothing. The first thing that came to my mind, besides all its sleek and bright colors, was how that bird better be doing something more than just sitting there and looking pretty. I found myself hoping it knew just how distinct and attractive it was, and how it ought to be doing something spectactular amongst its fellow birds.


Then God spoke into my heart and reminded me that while He loves and embraces me as I am, He is not impressed by my 'colors'. My natural gifts and talents don't blow Him away. After all, He is the One who placed them in me in the first place.


However, what is astounding and marvelous, is when we use, however much or little we have, for the purposes of expanding good, inspiring others, and ultimately serving humanity and honoring God. That's what God applauses, and that's what I'm starting to become more and more impressed by when I look at those around me.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

My wife...

getting ready for the journey


She has the most incredible smile.
She makes me melt inside.
She fills her prayers with my name.
She's a creative force, reflecting beauty she can't explain.

She's tasted life she can't get enough of.
She's experienced things she can't help but share.
She's unable to separate what she does and what she believes.
She presses in to bring out the person I was created to be.

She can squeal and squirm at the slightest of discomfort.
She can do battle with darkness and not even flinch.
She can be fragile and broken and easily hurt.
She can make beauty from ashes and life from dirt.

She loves to run, run away, run free, run back to me.
She loves to laugh, at herself, at me, at the simplest things.
She makes me smile and laugh like no one else does.
She warms my soul and makes me more than whole.

She's secretly shy, summoning strength each day to give herself others.
She defends me and celebrates me when I'm not looking.
She takes on my struggles as if they were her own.
She takes on my passions as if they were her own.

and what I can't get over, is that, she gives herself to me, as if she were always mine.

Update: I think there's a chance she might even start occasionally blogging, check out her crazy pic and vox here.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Life...

... has been absolutely wonderful.


posing in an empty sign post on the street


I've been reading again, growing, connecting with people, reflecting, imagining, dreaming and scheming, experimenting, sharing, and enjoying every moment.


I just started messing around with this gmail skin as a firefox extension that allows you to integrate google portal stuff like calendar, flickr, news, etc.


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Up next, a post on my incredibly marvelous wife, yvz.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

The world is flat and invisible children...

The world if flat cover

I just finished my last paper for the term, and it looks like there's no appropriate classes I can take in the summer, so I've got a couple months of living and working like a normal person.


I've gotten back on reading. Currently going through "The divine conspiracy", "The secret message Jesus", and I just picked up 'The world is flat" from the library.


A couple early quotes from it.


"Those who get caught in the past and resist change will be forced deeper into commoditization. Those who create value through leadership, relationships and creativity will transform the industry, as well as strengthen relationships with their existing clients."


In a conversation with a leader of an outsourcing firm in India: "We are in the middle of a big technological change, and when you live in a society that is at the cutting edge of that change [like America], it is hard to predict. It's easy to predict for someone living in India. In ten years we are going to be doing a lot of the stuff that is being done in America today. We can predict our future. But we are behind you. You are defining the future."


A lot of this sounds like the usual globalization talk, and sometimes I think there is a perception that this is how things will always be. That developed nations, like America, will constantly lead and innovate while 'helping' other nations through outsourcing while they race ahead. What I believe, and hope Friedman gets to in the book, is that this won't always be the case. If it's true that every soul longs to create, express, dream, and innovate, then in a 'flattening' world, there could come a time, i hope, where every nation leads and innovates, and no person is reduced to a commodity. Sadly, I think the thought of this frightens some people, corporations, and countries.


The Corporation


Speaking of corporations, I know I'm late on this, but I finally watched "The corporation" with Yvonne last night. It really is a must-watch.


Right this moment, we're raping the earth, and one another, and we barely feel a thing.







Invisible Children


We also watched "Invisible Children". I'm completely distrubed by it. Though I am amazed at the type of resiliance and hope these children have with the conditions they live in... especially when I compare them to the punk kids I've come across.


Something in these kids, that I'd like to believe is the image of God in every human being, allows them to still experience glimpses of joy while longing for better days. For them, not being murdered, raped, or abducted is cause of celebration. What does it take to make you celebrate?

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Caleb...

Our small group just had it's first baby. Chris & Sharon just gave birth to Caleb. what a great name...


Caleb was one of the spies who explored the Promise Land, but because the Israelites didn't listen to his advice, they ended up wandering aimlessly for fourty years inthe desert. In Joshua 14, Caleb is an octogenarian. He says, "Here I am today, eight-five years old! I am still as strong today as the day Moses sent me out: I'm just as vigorous to go out to battle now as I was then." And then you can hear forty-five years of pent-up conviction in his voice. "Now give me this hill country that the Lord promised me that day." Caleb doesn't want Joshua to simply settle on a piece of property and retire. He's still passionate anand willing to fight even in his old age. He wants the hill country - the land of giants.


Here's a picture of the family. Below it seems like a favorite on my flickr site, of Sharon comparing her belly with my dad's.


Baby Caleb My dad and Sharon

Monday, April 24, 2006

From the tomb...

On the front page of the Toronto Star newspaper today was an essay by James Loney. He was abducted in Iraq by Islamic militants and held hostage for three months and shares his life-altering experience. Full article here.


I felt the below excerpt was deeply profound:



I am learning many things from my captivity, and have a universe of things to be grateful for. Among them is a new and deep appreciation for the women and men who wear the uniform of military service. I likely would not be writing this today if it were not for them. Thus, I am confronted with a great paradox. I, the Christian pacifist peacemaker, am alive, am free because of the very institutions I believe are contrary to Christian teaching.




Christ teaches us to love our enemies, do good to those who harm us, pray for those who persecute us. He calls us to accept suffering before we inflict injury. He calls us to pick up the cross and to lay down the sword.




We will most certainly fail in this call. I did. And I'll fail again. This does not change Christ's teaching that violence itself is the tomb, violence is the dead-end. Peace won through the barrel of a gun might be a victory but it is not peace. Our captors had guns and they ruled over us. Our rescuers had bigger guns and ruled over the captors. We were freed, but the rule of the gun stayed. The stone across the tomb of violence has not been rolled away.




I'm learning that there are many kinds of prisons and many kinds of tombs. Prisons of the mind, the heart, the body. Tombs of despair, fear, confusion. Tombs within tombs and prisons within prisons.




There are no easy answers. We must all find our way through a broken world, struggling with the paradox of call and failure. My captivity and rescue have helped me to catch a glimpse of how powerful the force of resurrection is. Christ, that tomb-busting suffering servant Son of God, seeks us wherever we are, reaches for us in whatever darkness we inhabit.




May we reach for each other with that same persistence. The tomb is not the final word.


Saturday, April 15, 2006

Google calendar...

I've been waiting forever for this. finally just got in the beta.


try logging in with you gmail at www.google.com/cl2


there's a couple bugs still and not all features are enabled yet, but just an update on how much I love this already, here's a screenshot of my current month.


What I love are the calendar overlays so I can click off certain calendar types, ie when I don't feel like looking at work stuff. I made a calendar for tasks / so it's like a to-do list of the day as well that I can turn on/off. I'd love to hear how other people are using it and what mash ups come out of this.


google calendar snapshot

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Hot Stuff...

Head down in another paper again... but here's some hot stuff I've stumbled upon while constructively avoiding school work.


Mosaic's began video podcasting!


Windows will run on Mac's now.


Zooomr - Like flickr but seems even slickr.


Criswell Theological Review is now available. Articles from both Mclaren and Driscoll on the emerging church.


"Under the overpass" - dude who voluntarily went homeless for five months and wrote a book about it.


Mary J. Blige and U2 team up to remake "one", see the video here.


Join us at the Vox Book Club as we've just started reading Divine Conspiracy by Dallas Willard.


And finally, another home made burger shot. It seems like every time people have come over the last while I've cooked these up. My wife loves'em. They just keep getting bigger. The burgers patty alone weight in at about a 1.5lb's.


Cross section of my homemade burger

Friday, March 31, 2006

My friend Kavin...

Kavin was one of my best friends throughout high school. I think we met while slacking off in a grade 10 business class. He wanted to be a fashion designer. I wanted to be a rock star. We both didn't belong. We connected immediately.


It may have helped that he was one of my first friends with a car. I still think about that beautiful car. It was a junkie burgundy k-car that you could put your feet up on. It didn't only take us places - just being near it was a good time. Sure the door would come out and the muffler would drag while driving, but Kavin's car was freedom from that place called home, which meant a lot as a teenager.


Kavin introduced me to Depeche Mode, and we'd talk about music for hours. Radiohead, nine inch nails, smashing pumpkins, even brit-pop littered our conversations. We'd loiter everywhere we go. We even saved the cups at Taco Bell in the trunk of his beater for the free refills every time we went back. Yes, they were good times.


Looking back I wish I could say that I was a positive influence. I'm sure we had constructive conversations about girls, life, and God, but I really wasn't doing so well myself those days. I recall being a jerk to Kavin on multiple occasions. Still, he stuck by, and I still wonder why.


Kavin was smarter than me and taller than me, and rightly so I think he had better ambitions than me. I think he actually wanted to be somebody. I was a dark cloud never wanting anyone to be anything. I'd laugh at those who were 'involved' and mocked those who 'tried' in life. I find it was so easy being and influencing others to be apathetic, cynical, and aimless. The thought always haunts me that Kavin was one of those people who crossed my path during these darker times.


What I love about Kavin is that he has a spirit that wrestles with things. Sometimes it was hilarious when the feeling of angst was mutual. Other times, when I was more oblivious to what was going on, I think that the angst led him to moments of despair. Before it was cool to have a tortured soul, Kavin had one. He has one because underneath it all, he actually cares deeply in a world that tells him not to.


Kavin is a creative spirit, ridiculously funny, a searcher, and the dude who used to drive me around.


Here's a picture he made of himself. Yes it's all him.


Kavin's personal party

Sunday, March 26, 2006

In North Carolina...

I'm in Raleigh, NC this week for business.


trees in Raleigh


It's amazing how the roads cut through the tall trees here.


Check out Riya for photo hosting with facial recognition.

Books i'm reading this week as I travel:


Church planting roadmap


Practitioners


Generous Orthodoxy

Monday, March 20, 2006

Updates...

I just added a couple of my feeds to the sidebar.

Flickr badge allows for a glance at your photos online randomly or chronologically. I've got it set on random right now.

And Del.icio.us if you don't know already is a great online bookmarking/tagging tool. Using 'link rolls' the latest links as i scour the web are dynamically placed on the sidepanel as well.

Experiential Storytelling...

I've just returned from a few days of rest and relaxation in Ottawa. It was much needed and so very cherished. Didn't do much of anything, except enjoyed ourselves.


For those who were interested in my small group leadership training 'book', let me know and I'll pass what I have along. I've got a hundred excuses why not to show it to anybody just yet. But after much thought, it'd be silly not to risk allowing people to have a glimpse into this work in process, no matter how unrefined.


Here's a photo of me and The Rock back in 2000 that reminds me to suck it up and be bold.


The rock and I


I got a bit further in several books, one of them being Mark Miller's Experiential StoryTelling. A few notes from it.



- The real beauty of experiential education is that it places trust in the learner to derive meaning from his or her experience. As a learning environment is created, the active focus shifts from the educator to the student.

- Truth divorced from experience will always dwell in the realms of doubt. (Henry Drause)

- We were created with a curiosity, a complexity, and a need for meaning

- Whether we are Christian's or not, our hearts were created to vibrate with the story of God.

- Every child is an artist. The child is how to remain an artist once he grows up (Pablo Picasso)

- Never let formal education get in the way of your learning (Mark Twain)

- Embracing this new mode of communication means worship becomes collaboration, faith now becomes a journey, and the gospel is now communicated in multiple forms of media


Thursday, March 16, 2006

Free at last...


The last few weeks have been brutal. Work's been busy, school work skyrocketed, and silly me, refused to bail out of any community events.


I can't seem to understand why my productivity never kicks into gear until its the very last minute. It's 2 am and I'm driving out to Ottawa tomorrow morning. I should be tired, but I'm so excited to be finally free!


Here's a few interesting links i've collected as my A.D.D. has acted up during this time of busyness.


Goolge Calendar will be coming out. I've been waiting for this for ages.

Life in the Googleplex photoessay. If I was a tech geek and not going into ministry I would totally find a way to join google.

Malcolm Gladwell just started blogging

Anne Rice - the latest on her and... Johnny Depp? If you haven't read it, definitely check out her latest "Christ our Lord"

Secret Message of Jesus - excerpts from Brian Mclaren's coming book.

Clips of MoleMan - yes the guy from the simpsons

Vox book club - join it - Divine Conspiracy will be our first book in April.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

my book...

Here's a screenshot of my book. It's more of a 50 page booklet or manual on small group leadership, but let's call it a book for now since i've always wanted to write one.

book screenshot


There's a zoom function on Microsoft Word that lets you see all of your pages. None of it is legible of course, but I just like looking at it and saying to myself, 'look at what you did'.


It still needs some editing, and is by no way complete, are books ever? I wouldn't say it's an even effort throughout, and like an artist, I know the parts that I slaved over and what I rushed through. Anyhow, it's good enough for a school project, for now.


Just one more major paper and a speaking engagement to go, and I'll be able to start sleeping again monday.

stretched for time...

I haven't slept much this weekend, and have been sitting at a computer around 18 hours a day the last while working on multiple papers and projects.


I think I might be handing in my first ever late paper this week, simply because it's of so little interest to me right now (it's on a Greek exegesis of a passage in Galatians). The one project that I'm really enjoying, yet consuming all my time and completely draining me, is the developing of a 'small group leadership manual' for one of my classes. I rarely say this, but I can't wait till this week is done and over with.


As for now, I'll leave you with this lyric from Kanye West's Jesus Walks that I just love.



I ain't here to argue about his facial features

Or here to convert atheists into believers

I'm just trying to say the way school need teachers

The way Kathie Lee needed Regis,

that's the way I need Jesus



Blessings.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Valentines for the homeless...

Homeless ChristFor Valentines, Yvonne and I celebrated, by getting our small group downtown to connect with the homeless in our city.


We split into three teams and gave out some quality sandwiches, brand-spanking new socks, drinks, snacks and roses. I thought the roses would be an interesting idea, but only managed to give out a few of them.


A few people in my group had never done anything like this before, and I'm glad they all had a positive experience. One person did have an individual on the streets say to her "Don't think you're so innocent". Truth is, we're not, but how easy is it for us to come off that way?


For me, it was just refreshing to connect with our city as it really is. Rather than avoiding eye contact, as I often do, I spent a whole night trying to look into the eyes of those we wish just weren't there.


I find the real challenge, is not nights like these, but everyday I go about and pass by people. Yvonne and I want to always try to have something packed that we can give away when we go out.


This night makes me think of a great Goo Goo Dolls song called Better Days that I think should be our new Christmas anthem.



and the one poor child who saved this world

and there's ten million more who probably could

if we all just stopped and said a prayer for them



You can find the rest of the lyrics here and watch the video here.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Stand against the wind...

Stand against the wind coverI got and finished reading Erwin McManus's latest, Stand against the wind, it appears a day before it's officially released.


It's a re-package of Uprising, flashier and in smaller chunks. I can see why it's geared toward the 18-35 market. I like uprising and the experience guide more, but still, I think i'll spend sometime commenting on it the next while.


Update: I just posted up some missional values under 'my pages' that I wrote up a while back. Not sure how to get comments activated in that section at the moment.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Change or die...

Change or DieI just got back from seeing the dentist. I don't floss. Other than the moment before I head to the dental office. It's painful every time. Especially since I've got an aversion to all things metal (I try to eat with plastic cutlery whenever possible). Everytime I go they remind me to floss, and everytime I go back I wonder why I didn't. Why don't I change?


I just finished reading a Fast Company magazine I borrowed from the library. It's cover story is Change or Die. Though most of us say and think that we would change if the risks were high enough, the premise of the article is that we shouldn't count on it. Even facing death itself rarely leads to change.


It says how 80% of the 1.8 trillion dollar health care budget in America is attributed to preventable behavioral issues. Two years after having a coronary-artery bypass, 90% of patients have not changed their lifestyles.


That's nine to one odds against you ever changing. What do you think of that? You're not going to change. I shudder at the thought of it. That much of who you are is who you are. That's it. Or is it?


(You can find most of the article online here)

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Millions...

Million's MovieI just rented, and ended up keeping and buying the movie Millions. It's a british indi-film that only made 6 million at the box office, but I absolutely love.


It's a quaint and charming PG movie about a boy struggling to do what he believes is right, no matter how naive, in a world that doesn't share the same values. There's a mixture of Catholicism, mysticism, and fantasy throughout and makes for a great discussion. Go watch it!


This is a song from the soundtrack I can't get enough of. It's called 'Nirvana' by El Bosco and features a Spanish children's choir.

Friday, February 10, 2006

Just pictures...

Far too swamped to write... other than about what I'm busy with, but who in our day and age wants to hear about someone else's busyness anyways?


Homemade burger


above is a homemade burger I made for Yvonne... lean ground beef mixed with chopped onion and spices, roasted tomatoes, carmelized onions, sauteed mushrooms on multigrain bread. mmmm..mmm....!

asleep babysitting


I found this picture in my camera. Yvonne must have snapped it when we were taking care of our friend's baby Isabelle.

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Bono preaches...

Amazing. Read the transcript below.

Video clip on cnn here.

Bono's best sermon yet: Remarks at the National Prayer Breakfast

If you're wondering what I'm doing here, at a prayer breakfast, well, so am I. I'm certainly not here as a man of the cloth, unless that cloth is leather. It's certainly not because I'm a rock star. Which leaves one possible explanation: I'm here because I've got a messianic complex.

Yes, it's true. And for anyone who knows me, it's hardly a revelation.

Well, I'm the first to admit that there's something unnatural...something unseemly...about rock stars mounting the pulpit and preaching at presidents, and then disappearing to their villas in the south of France. Talk about a fish out of water. It was weird enough when Jesse Helms showed up at a U2 concert...but this is really weird, isn't it?

You know, one of the things I love about this country is its separation of church and state. Although I have to say: in inviting me here, both church and state have been separated from something else completely: their mind.

Mr. President, are you sure about this?

It's very humbling and I will try to keep my homily brief. But be warned - I'm Irish.

I'd like to talk about the laws of man, here in this city where those laws are written. And I'd like to talk about higher laws. It would be great to assume that the one serves the other; that the laws of man serve these higher laws...but of course, they don't always. And I presume that, in a sense, is why you're here.

I presume the reason for this gathering is that all of us here - Muslims, Jews, Christians - all are searching our souls for how to better serve our family, our community, our nation, our God.

I know I am. Searching, I mean. And that, I suppose, is what led me here, too.

Yes, it's odd, having a rock star here - but maybe it's odder for me than for you. You see, I avoided religious people most of my life. Maybe it had something to do with having a father who was Protestant and a mother who was Catholic in a country where the line between the two was, quite literally, a battle line. Where the line between church and state was...well, a little blurry, and hard to see.

I remember how my mother would bring us to chapel on Sundays... and my father used to wait outside. One of the things that I picked up from my father and my mother was the sense that religion often gets in the way of God.

For me, at least, it got in the way. Seeing what religious people, in the name of God, did to my native land...and in this country, seeing God's second-hand car salesmen on the cable TV channels, offering indulgences for cash...in fact, all over the world, seeing the self-righteousness roll down like a mighty stream from certain corners of the religious establishment...

I must confess, I changed the channel. I wanted my MTV.

Even though I was a believer.

Perhaps because I was a believer.

I was cynical...not about God, but about God's politics. (There you are, Jim.)

Then, in 1997, a couple of eccentric, septuagenarian British Christians went and ruined my shtick - my reproachfulness. They did it by describing the millennium, the year 2000, as a Jubilee year, as an opportunity to cancel the chronic debts of the world's poorest people. They had the audacity to renew the Lord's call - and were joined by Pope John Paul II, who, from an Irish half-Catholic's point of view, may have had a more direct line to the Almighty.

'Jubilee' - why 'Jubilee'?

What was this year of Jubilee, this year of our Lord's favor?

I'd always read the scriptures, even the obscure stuff. There it was in Leviticus (25:35)...

'If your brother becomes poor,' the scriptures say, 'and cannot maintain himself...you shall maintain him.... You shall not lend him your money at interest, not give him your food for profit.'

It is such an important idea, Jubilee, that Jesus begins his ministry with this. Jesus is a young man, he's met with the rabbis, impressed everyone, people are talking. The elders say, he's a clever guy, this Jesus, but he hasn't done much...yet. He hasn't spoken in public before...

When he does, is first words are from Isaiah: 'The Spirit of the Lord is upon me,' he says, 'because He has anointed me to preach good news to the poor.' And Jesus proclaims the year of the Lord's favour, the year of Jubilee (Luke 4:18).

What he was really talking about was an era of grace - and we're still in it.

So fast-forward 2,000 years. That same thought, grace, was made incarnate - in a movement of all kinds of people. It wasn't a bless-me club... it wasn't a holy huddle. These religious guys were willing to get out in the streets, get their boots dirty, wave the placards, follow their convictions with actions...making it really hard for people like me to keep their distance. It was amazing. I almost started to like these church people.

But then my cynicism got another helping hand.

It was what Colin Powell, a five-star general, called the greatest W.M.D. of them all: a tiny little virus called AIDS. And the religious community, in large part, missed it. The ones that didn't miss it could only see it as divine retribution for bad behaviour. Even on children...even [though the] fastest growing group of HIV infections were married, faithful women.

Aha, there they go again! I thought to myself judgmentalism is back!

But in truth, I was wrong again. The church was slow but the church got busy on this the leprosy of our age.

Love was on the move.

Mercy was on the move.

God was on the move.

Moving people of all kinds to work with others they had never met, never would have cared to meet...conservative church groups hanging out with spokesmen for the gay community, all singing off the same hymn sheet on AIDS...soccer moms and quarterbacks...hip-hop stars and country stars. This is what happens when God gets on the move: crazy stuff happens!

Popes were seen wearing sunglasses!

Jesse Helms was seen with a ghetto blaster!

Crazy stuff. Evidence of the spirit.

It was breathtaking. Literally. It stopped the world in its tracks.

When churches started demonstrating on debt, governments listened - and acted. When churches starting organising, petitioning, and even - that most unholy of acts today, God forbid, lobbying...on AIDS and global health, governments listened - and acted.

I'm here today in all humility to say: you changed minds; you changed policy; you changed the world.

Look, whatever thoughts you have about God, who He is or if He exists, most will agree that if there is a God, He has a special place for the poor. In fact, the poor are where God lives.

Check Judaism. Check Islam. Check pretty much anyone.

I mean, God may well be with us in our mansions on the hill. I hope so. He may well be with us as in all manner of controversial stuff. Maybe, maybe not. But the one thing we can all agree, all faiths and ideologies, is that God is with the vulnerable and poor.

God is in the slums, in the cardboard boxes where the poor play house. God is in the silence of a mother who has infected her child with a virus that will end both their lives. God is in the cries heard under the rubble of war. God is in the debris of wasted opportunity and lives, and God is with us if we are with them. "If you remove the yoke from your midst, the pointing of the finger and speaking wickedness, and if you give yourself to the hungry and satisfy the desire of the afflicted, then your light will rise in darkness and your gloom with become like midday and the Lord will continually guide you and satisfy your desire in scorched places."

It's not a coincidence that in the scriptures, poverty is mentioned more than 2,100 times. It's not an accident. That's a lot of air time, 2,100 mentions. (You know, the only time Christ is judgmental is on the subject of the poor.) 'As you have done it unto the least of these my brethren, you have done it unto me' (Matthew 25:40). As I say, good news to the poor.

Here's some good news for the president. After 9/11 we were told America would have no time for the world's poor. America would be taken up with its own problems of safety. And it's true these are dangerous times, but America has not drawn the blinds and double-locked the doors.

In fact, you have doubled aid to Africa. You have tripled funding for global health. Mr. President, your emergency plan for AIDS relief and support for the Global Fund - you and Congress - have put 700,000 people onto life-saving anti-retroviral drugs and provided 8 million bed nets to protect children from malaria.

Outstanding human achievements. Counterintuitive. Historic. Be very, very proud.

But here's the bad news. From charity to justice, the good news is yet to come. There is much more to do. There's a gigantic chasm between the scale of the emergency and the scale of the response.

And finally, it's not about charity after all, is it? It's about justice.

Let me repeat that: It's not about charity, it's about justice.

And that's too bad.

Because you're good at charity. Americans, like the Irish, are good at it. We like to give, and we give a lot, even those who can't afford it.

But justice is a higher standard. Africa makes a fool of our idea of justice; it makes a farce of our idea of equality. It mocks our pieties, it doubts our concern, it questions our commitment.

Sixty-five hundred Africans are still dying every day of a preventable, treatable disease, for lack of drugs we can buy at any drug store. This is not about charity, this is about justice and equality.

Because there's no way we can look at what's happening in Africa and, if we're honest, conclude that deep down, we really accept that Africans are equal to us. Anywhere else in the world, we wouldn't accept it. Look at what happened in South East Asia with the tsunami. 150,000 lives lost to that misnomer of all misnomers, "mother nature." In Africa, 150,000 lives are lost every month. A tsunami every month. And it's a completely avoidable catastrophe.

It's annoying but justice and equality are mates. Aren't they? Justice always wants to hang out with equality. And equality is a real pain.

You know, think of those Jewish sheep-herders going to meet the Pharaoh, mud on their shoes, and the Pharaoh says, "Equal?" A preposterous idea: rich and poor are equal? And they say, "Yeah, 'equal,' that's what it says here in this book. We're all made in the image of God."

And eventually the Pharaoh says, "OK, I can accept that. I can accept the Jews - but not the blacks."

"Not the women. Not the gays. Not the Irish. No way, man."

So on we go with our journey of equality.

On we go in the pursuit of justice.

We hear that call in the ONE Campaign, a growing movement of more than 2 million Americans...Left and Right together... united in the belief that where you live should no longer determine whether you live.

We hear that call even more powerfully today, as we mourn the loss of Coretta Scott King - mother of a movement for equality, one that changed the world but is only just getting started. These issues are as alive as they ever were; they just change shape and cross the seas.

Preventing the poorest of the poor from selling their products while we sing the virtues of the free market...that's a justice issue. Holding children to ransom for the debts of their grandparents...that's a justice issue. Withholding life-saving medicines out of deference to the Office of Patents...that's a justice issue.

And while the law is what we say it is, God is not silent on the subject.

That's why I say there's the law of the land…. And then there is a higher standard. There's the law of the land, and we can hire experts to write them so they benefit us, so the laws say it's OK to protect our agriculture but it's not OK for African farmers to do the same, to earn a living?

As the laws of man are written, that's what they say.

God will not accept that.

Mine won't, at least. Will yours?

[ pause]

I close this morning on...very...thin...ice.

This is a dangerous idea I've put on the table: my God vs. your God, their God vs. our God...vs. no God. It is very easy, in these times, to see religion as a force for division rather than unity.

And this is a town - Washington - that knows something of division.

But the reason I am here, and the reason I keep coming back to Washington, is because this is a town that is proving it can come together on behalf of what the scriptures call the least of these.

This is not a Republican idea. It is not a Democratic idea. It is not even, with all due respect, an American idea. Nor it is unique to any one faith.

'Do to others as you would have them do to you' (Luke 6:30). Jesus says that.

'Righteousness is this: that one should...give away wealth out of love for him to the near of kin and the orphans and the needy and the wayfarer and the beggars and for the emancipation of the captives.' The Koran says that (2.177).

Thus sayeth the Lord: 'Bring the homeless poor into the house, when you see the naked, cover him, then your light will break out like the dawn and your recovery will speedily spring fourth, then your Lord will be your rear guard.' The Jewish scripture says that. Isaiah 58 again.

That is a powerful incentive: 'The Lord will watch your back.' Sounds like a good deal to me, right now.

A number of years ago, I met a wise man who changed my life. In countless ways, large and small, I was always seeking the Lord's blessing. I was saying, you know, I have a new song, look after it…. I have a family, please look after them…. I have this crazy idea...

And this wise man said: stop.

He said, stop asking God to bless what you're doing.

Get involved in what God is doing - because it's already blessed.

Well, God, as I said, is with the poor. That, I believe, is what God is doing.

And that is what he's calling us to do.

I was amazed when I first got to this country and I learned how much some churchgoers tithe. Up to 10% of the family budget. Well, how does that compare with the federal budget, the budget for the entire American family? How much of that goes to the poorest people in the world? Less than 1%.

Mr. President, Congress, people of faith, people of America:

I want to suggest to you today that you see the flow of effective foreign assistance as tithing.... Which, to be truly meaningful, will mean an additional 1% of the federal budget tithed to the poor.

What is 1%?

1% is not merely a number on a balance sheet.

1% is the girl in Africa who gets to go to school, thanks to you. 1% is the AIDS patient who gets her medicine, thanks to you. 1% is the African entrepreneur who can start a small family business thanks to you. 1% is not redecorating presidential palaces or money flowing down a rat hole. This 1% is digging waterholes to provide clean water.

1% is a new partnership with Africa, not paternalism toward Africa, where increased assistance flows toward improved governance and initiatives with proven track records and away from boondoggles and white elephants of every description.

America gives less than 1% now. We're asking for an extra 1% to change the world. to transform millions of lives - but not just that and I say this to the military men now - to transform the way that they see us.

1% is national security, enlightened economic self-interest, and a better, safer world rolled into one. Sounds to me that in this town of deals and compromises, 1% is the best bargain around.

These goals - clean water for all; school for every child; medicine for the afflicted, an end to extreme and senseless poverty - these are not just any goals; they are the Millennium Development goals, which this country supports. And they are more than that. They are the Beatitudes for a globalised world.

Now, I'm very lucky. I don't have to sit on any budget committees. And I certainly don't have to sit where you do, Mr. President. I don't have to make the tough choices.

But I can tell you this:

To give 1% more is right. It's smart. And it's blessed.

There is a continent - Africa - being consumed by flames.

I truly believe that when the history books are written, our age will be remembered for three things: the war on terror, the digital revolution, and what we did - or did not to - to put the fire out in Africa.

History, like God, is watching what we do.

Thank you. Thank you, America, and God bless you all.

Friday, February 03, 2006

Train ride to Montreal...

I decided to take the ViaRail (the train that connects across Canada) for my business trip to Montreal this week. There's wi-fi acccess onboard and the image of the voxtropolis login screen with the train station came to mind. It's amazing what humans have done to stay connected.

There is something about being on a train. There's a sense that you're multitasking because you're travelling, yet it's incredibly relaxing. You're presented with moving sceneries of nature, cities, and loved-ones hugging as they re-connect at each stop. It also really helps when you're being pampered in 1st class with your every need met... swordfish and filet mignon were on the menu today, incredible.


Here's a picture from of the city from my hotel suite. It's interesting how in the dark, you can only see what the light hits...


Wednesday, January 25, 2006

I'm not sure why this image stirs me...




Whatever you think of Joyce Meyer (one of our top 50's in my previous post), she helped rally 40,000 people across India to pray and reflect on Christ.


I'm a minority myself, attending an ethnic church, yet something wierd inside of me still thinks 'wow, they worship our Lord too'...


I absolutely believe the Scriptures when it talks about every tongue, and tribe, and nation, worshiping God... I just don't think i've come even close to experiencing the full richness and beauty of it all. I wonder when that day will come...

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Christ, the white, skinny, model...

The Lord's Supper for models

I think I'll be dual posting here and there between blogger and voxtropolis until I can migrate my archives and things get tweaked over there.


A few articles i've stumbled upon recently.


Article from the American Spectator thinks that 2006 might be the worst year for Jesus since 33 A.D. with reports that he was a stoner and the release of the Da Vinci Code movie.


In Italy, someone's taking Jesus to court. He's being charged with impersonation!


The above photo of the Lord's supper by fashion designer Marithe Francois Girbaud was banned
by Milan
. I'm not sure why people were so offended. Can't skinny white models come to Jesus as well? Sometimes we think Jesus only came for the outcast, the lame, and the poor. He also came for the popular, the socially beautiful, and the rich (ie. Matthew the tax collector).


and to go a bit further... if the world was nothing but a bunch of skinny white models (to sterotype, I know every individual is much more than that),


wouldn't Jesus, as the God who reaches down to live and die amongst us, also have come as a skinny, white, model?

Thursday, January 12, 2006

I'm moving to Voxtropolis...

I'm part of the Voxtropolis (City of voices) beta community that Alex McManus and company have put together... i'll be transitioning my reflections there in the coming months as the kinks get worked out.

As for now, here are the latest pics from my amazing little faith community.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Pouring sunlight on the streets...


Check out the size of those onion rings.

This Christmas I wrote my beautiful wife a little song. It's partially about how I have to drag her out of bed every morning (literally by the feet as she hangs onto the pillows).

I'll even disclose myself further and share the mp3 i just made of it. One-shot, unedited, with the only strumming pattern i know. Guess which popular song of 2005 i got most of the tune from...






Hey princess, wake up,
I know how it feels good in the dark.
You hide yourself, but there’s so much light locked in that heart

I pull you out, so you can shine,
I lift you up, for the world to see.
You have no idea how lovely you can be...

You don’t have to be the best
It’s okay if you’re a mess
Just share your soul with me
We’ll spend our days, pouring sunlight on the streets

I know, it gets hard,
Being daylight, in the dark,
But don’t you cover up now, your beauty’s breaking through...

And when nothing works out right
And darkness clouds your way
I’ll lift you back up high
We’ll spend our days, pouring sunlight on the streets

mp3 temporarily available for here.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Small groups...

Just a few things to chew on from my class...

We typically have or aim for having a paid pastoral staff member for every 150 people. With a solid small group model that can be stretched to 500 people for every paid staff member... The Mormon's with over 10 million members have a total of 12 paid staff.

Small groups don't just happen. Behind the scenes of every thriving small group is a leader working very hard.

If you're going to teach people how to love, you better teach them how to grieve as well.

I'm re-launching our small group this year. I'm hoping to add more structure to facilitate additional chaos as we deepen and expand our realm of impact.

Our irreducible minimum's that we'll be focusing on this year are Christ, Community, and Cause.

Can't wait to see how things unfold.

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Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Great things ahead...

Just got back from the annual trip to Ottawa, and what looks like quite the blogging hiatus.

Thanks to those who've continued checking in.

Before I started working and before I got married, 2006 had been marked in my mind as the year I retire from the workforce, return to school full-time, and we have ourselves a child.

Some think I'm jumping into a life of debt. I think it's just going to be another step in this beatiful adventure through life with my wife.

I finished Anne Rice's 'Christ our Lord' novel (actually i borrowed the audiobook from the library). It was risky and brilliant. I've never experienced a more vivid and rich picture of the Jewish culture during Jesus' day. Though slow at times, parts of it just left me in awe of God who walked the earth. You can find a more full review here or on amazon.

I'll be at Tyndale the rest of the week taking 'building a church through small groups'.

Have a great 2006. It's up to you.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Church planting congress...

I was very sick for a couple days and am in the middle of the national church planting congress.

I need some time to repent. More later.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Everyday Mission...

Many paid for "Sex with Lon" last semester...

(A sunday school class I taught a few months back called Passion & Purity that quickly got renamed by its attenders)

Coming soon is "Everyday Mission".
Mission is where the deepest needs of humanity and your calling intersect. Rekindle the flame for living beyond yourself. Rediscover the lost art of articulating your faith. Reveal Jesus in all that you do. Relentlessly live on mission every day of your life.
I'm hoping many can come because I think it's going to be some of the most important content ever. Yes ever.


(I just realized this blog hasn't been showing up in Internet Explorer properly. Unless someone can tell me what's going on, i don't think i'm going to try and fix it. You should be using firefox or opera anyways.)

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Incredible...

Things have been incredible the last while. It seems as if I've spent the last few years trying to get here. I've been researching, organizing, and tweaking my core values, priorities, systems, tools, and disciplines.

I've finally reached a precious sweet spot (at least for the time being), where my life feels in-synch with how things ought to be. It's been a long journey of trial and error and discovery, but I'm absolutely convinced that the habits and foundations i've been laying down over time will shape a destiny.

I'm a bit drained from trying to finish my Greek Exegesis paper last night, but that's because 'date night' with my wife tonight is a priority in my life. My walk with the Lord has been a become a consistant jog with spurts of running, my finances & budget is in order, i have processes for idea capturing, archiving and actioning, i'm now on year 4 of our 30 year plan and on track, i have an amazing community in which I lead but that also supports me, I have key relationships of all sorts in which i'm investing my life in, my family has been getting along better than ever, i'm solid at work, emails are responded to, i'm journaling and reflecting, i'm growing professionally and personally at a sustainable pace, I wake up excited in the mornings, and Yvonne, well she adds fuel to my fire and totally rocks!

As a relentless dreamer, I'm always longing for more than I can handle. Which means the things that need to get done are always piling up. I've been thinking of all these tasks-that-seem-to-slow-me-down as line items on a credit card bill. I can keep dreaming with incremental gains while being docked heavy interest mentally, OR I can consistantly keep that mental space clear so that I have even more room for dreaming, creativity, running free, moving forward, and all that exciting stuff.

One of my latest life changes, was finally taking care of myself. My physical health and well-being has been a final frontier that has always plagued me. Moving to our present condo with the gym facilities was very strategic in helping me with this particular goal.

Truth is, i've never really spent a lick of energy on my health. I still remember eating open chocolate bars i'd find on the streets, and sucking cheese and gravy from straws in high school. I wouldn't sleep for as much as four days in a row cramming text books i had never opened before for exams. Before I got married, I did like 10 push ups, and decided I was ready and 'presentable'... hilarious! The last couple months i finally started hitting the gym 3-5 times a week, staying active and watching what I eat.

It's been simply incredible being able to see the potential in each day that i'm blessed with on this earth. It's like i've been living in hole, and i'm just starting to live overground.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Still alive...

Still alive and kickin'... just been busily enjoying life.



Here's me holding a straight face as the best man for a wedding in ottawa, and Yvonne's family for her grandfather's 99th birthday...

In other news...
Sounds like queen of the Occult, Anne Rice, found God. I loved the vampire chronicles as a teen, I think i'll definitely check out the new book.

Audio's of C.J. and Carolyn Mahaney at the Men's and Women's 2005 Fall Conference at The Bible Church of Little Rock.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Updates...

Read about Google's billion dollar philanthropic commitment today.

We hope that someday this institution will eclipse Google itself in overall world impact by ambitiously applying innovation and significant resources to the largest of the world's problems. ~Sergey Brin & Larry Page
Gotta love it. What are you and your community/organization doing for the world?

Tony Morgan seems to be the place everyone's going to for Catalyst conference play-by-plays. Check out his blog as well as the official catalyst blog for the latest.

I've been starting to implement my own version of David Allen's GTD (Getting things' done) system with OneNote. We'll see how that goes, but just being actively conscious about maximizing my day to day life has already been very rewarding.

Surprisingly, i loved learning greek over the summer, but now that i'm taking part 3 and with part 4 to come next term, I can't say it's still quite as exciting.

Erwin McManus was at 722 last weekend, streaming video here.

I love my small group... i love the people, and their desires for a christ-centered community. Here are a couple of pics with alvin and sharen during a cheese/chocolate fondue and turkey night.

All the main session's of Northpoint's leadership Drive Conference is available here.

Monday, October 03, 2005

Buckhead Church in Atlanta...

While I was in Atlanta I checked out the night service at Buckhead. Buckhead is a satellite campus of North Point Community Church led by Andy Stanley and is regarded as one of the most innovative churches in America. It started in 2001 and is geared towards the twenty-something's crowd.

The church must be exploding because their parking is far beyond maxed out. For blocks coming into the church you see a mix of signs saying 'church parking here' or 'no church parking' in the neighboring store and restaurant parking lots.

They have shuttles that take people in from designated parking areas further out and often need to turn people away from the church because they'd be breaking fire regulations.

It's held in what looks like a converted barn. However, as soon as you head in it's as contemporary as it gets. Sleek foyer, with Flat screen monitors hanging on the walls.

Entering the sanctuary, it was so dark I couldn't find my way through, I felt a bit like I was entering a haunted house during Halloween. Much of this was because there was a heavy black curtain between the closed door behind me and the sanctuary. (now that I think about it makes some sense, because it's always a bit distracting at our church when people come in late and the light peers through the door as the lights are dimmed).

The whole service was dark, with lights scattered across the ceiling, that looked like stars in the expanse. Louie Giglio gave an astronomy lesson for a good half hour and interlaced it with God's awesomeness in creation. I felt like I was at a planetarium more than a church. It was great! You can check out the message here, titled 'astronomical grace'

What's amazing is how large a community Buckhead gathers using pre-recorded messages from North Point. I knew going in that I was watching a video-feed, but a few minutes in, they actually convinced me that there was someone on stage. If you look at my picture on the bottom right, that's a video of Louie Giglio, but because they have the screen going all the way down to the stage floor it looks like he's right there!

Anyhow, I can't describe how embarrassing it was taking pictures during a church service.

I accidentally left the flash on during my first shot and everyone turned back staring at me. Hopefully I'll know better next time. Overall a decent mega-church experience.